Sunday, April 5, 2009
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Sad case, I have fallen sick.. Fever, cough, phlegm, huge headache. When I turn my head, IT HURTS. Argh danm it man. Woke up with heavy headache, then started playing 9 Dragons!!! It's still amazing. Never get sucky like CabalSEA. Found out that I am running high fever and stuffs. Ate medicine, had little lunch and went to sleep till 9pm. Felt much better.
I hate my brother. It's like don't know how many times he have did this already. Just because he needs to go out, he has no money, my wallet's in the room, I'm outside at the living room. You just go inside the room and take the notes inside my wallet? Dude, this is MY money, not yours. Stop stealing money from me, okay? I have always been forgiving you BECAUSE YOU'RE MY BROTHER. Even worst you took Dad's and my handphone to go sms to @-Cash to get 50k @-cash for $150 inside Dad's and my phone bills? Dude, SCREW YOU. If there was a chance for me to choose, I really don't want you to be my brother. Are you even my brother? YOU ARE JUST A THIEF. Thanks a lot for stealing my money and doing all the bad stuffs, "BROTHER".
Achievement Day was quite a success I guess? SYF just 2 days away from now and I'm 101% sick. But I don't really care about my illness, I'll just go for band, school and not bother my illness. I rather die than to screw up SYF. My Meno Mosso or whatever at bar 96 of Folklore For Band was.. I don't know. I have to "cover" the piccolo or something. But on the same time, blend with it. So, it's like loud yet blendful. It's like using a ice blender, trying to ice blend Green Apple. So you use a little bit of ice and quite a lot of green apple, and you get a very nice drink.
I'm still quite nervous and not confidence for bar 96 of Folklore For Band. Like seriously.. I will get very nervous. Chrystal, Viknesh and Jingyi told me that during one of the SYFs, Petunia was playing solo if I wasn't wrong. And she was so nervous that she automatically vibrato. Weird part is I won't. Damn! Lol. Viknesh is so bad that he doesn't teach me ><. Upon thinking about band, after SYF, Chrystal will be stepping down.. I will be missing her.. Also, after NBC next year, Jingyi and Viknesh will leave me to 3 girl juniors and me only senior. Only Sec.3 I think. I hope there's more boys for me haha. I rather teach boys. I will be so shy ><.
Oh, did I not mention that Mr. Poh walked off angrily because of the brass not doing pp or articulation/dynamics at the beginning of Overture No.1 For Wind Band if I'm not wrong.. I'm not really blaming you guys.. But you have to work hard. Especially Trombones and Trumpets. Once again, not blaming you all or stressing you all, but your parts for both Overture and Folklore are important. Brasses are very important to musics, we don't depend on Woodwinds.. Everyone have to jiayous for SYF leh! We should never give up and feel that it's the end of the world, because it's not. Everything is possible when you believe. Like what Jing Heng and Senior Fir said, believe in yourself. Patricia have to jiayous and do your best for the part at Folklore For Band bar 68. Don't think you have done badly, because you did not, you did your best already. Whatever the results are, we did our best, we have tried our best. Yes, a lot of us are losing hopes already.. Worst still, Mr. Poh thinks that we will get C.O.P or Bronze. I mean, a lot of you all are thinking that too, but never lose hope. Show the whole school what the AI Concert Band are capable of doing! Jiayous once again!
Last thing.. The other someone told me you're taken.. Should I believe her? Like, you never told me before.. You only told me you like someone, but not you are stead-ing with someone.. Are you lying to me? Or is the girl who told me that's lying..? I'm so confused.. Can you tell me the truth? I don't want to end up in the oblivion knowing nothing. Like everyone always do to me.. I just have a little bit difficulty hearing things and you all say something and not repeat, not letting me know. Even worst when you guys are saying things, leave me alone. Am I even in this conversation? I think I should leave every conversations and stay alone. It's better.
I left my art at school.. So need to rush to school and bring paint, during recess rush to finish up every single painting shits.. English not really hard, so I guess I'll either do it today or tomorrow morning.. I'm tired a little even after my long sleep. My illness will attack to my heart and I will die some day. But my passion of music will forever stay in my soul. You too, will stay in my soul. Sleeping soon.
Goodbye.
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