Tuesday, February 24, 2009

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I never had my blogger mood since then..

So I finally blogged, didn't have the blogger mood at all.. School was okay like everyday, Sydney and I always saying those sick jokes which are so funny.. So pissed off with like one teacher, one student. Piano was quite screwed but I tried my best, and I'm promoting to Grade 2 right away next month. Fees are increased though. Days after days, I finally slept on my own room ALONE. It was quite scary though. Today did not went for band but to tuition. Tuition was good, kept on laughing because of others. Brandon, there's no that girl, I don't know how to spell her name ><. And even if I do, I won't say out. Today, at FT, wow, I stopped talking, and then I was LOOKING AT THE PAPER, Mrs Wong just said I talk, and I was like, I did not talk like after quite a while, and she's like, "Oh ya you never talk." and give that sarcastic face. I was like, FINE LA, I talk I talk.

This talk is to this guy in our class, I bet he's going to find out sooner or later, I won't care. I won't really even want to talk to him anymore. His face is already making me sick. Hey dude, you can talk when you tell us to shut up? So, you can talk in lessons but we can't, we talk too much, fine, it's the right thing to do. But what if it has YOU and others which are making sounds, you are very clever, say "Shh!" "Keep quiet!" like some dogs and then you go back to talking. Great job, MCL! You tell us to keep quiet, in blog, in real life, when you yourself are talking. Is it just because you're the MCL? Yes, MCL is the biggest, it also has a big responsible, you need not to put everything to yourself, other class leaders are useful in their own sense too, not the MCL is the only class leader okay? When I talk, I stopped just to listen to teachers, and then Sydney asks me serious things about the current lesson, or he don't understand, I reply him properly, and you tells me to shut up. Fine, you don't want me to talk, might as well tell Mrs Wong bring me to the most back so that I won't need to teach any bitches? You got brains, I got brains, I have my limits, and so do you. I know how to stop, why not you too? Using handphone in class, PLAYING DICTIONARY during lesson, even though I did, why do you even need to join in? When I look at you, I don't see Ashwath, you know what I see instead? I saw Napoleon of Animal Farm. When the animals see Napoleon with the humans, they see Napoleon as a human too. When I see you, I see you as Napoleon. You know why I always treated you much more better than the previous times at Sec. 1 Term 1 or 2? I believed you changed, a much better human, at MSN, at Term 2/3. You changed real better, but what now? A corrupted son of a bitch. Reflect please, I reflected, I soul-searched, I know I'm in the wrong, I wouldn't even blame anyone, it's my fault, I do talk too much, I will try to quiet. Zhan Xing said I wrote in the blog I will keep quiet, not I WILL KEEP QUIET but I will TRY to keep quiet. Okay? Get that fact right.

2nd thing, Xiaoqi or Xiao Hui whatever crap thing. This is to like all of you people, c'mon, you like rumours? I could like tell everyone that Ashwath likes whoever girls okay? Just because a fucking SMS from her, meaning we are in a relationship or I like her? Does that makes sense? Please, I'm a man, I admit who I like okay? I'm not like some cowards who only hide when they have relationships. Your insults, it doesn't hurt, but pisses off hardly. 3 things you need to get it right. First, I don't like Xiaoqi, we are not having a relationship. We are BANDMATES. Secondly, you like insulting so much, that's why I started insulting you so much about your skin tone. Thirdly, talking to you is a waste of our saliva, telling you our secret, is like telling to the whole world. Your mouth, it's like a dog, bark whenever you see a people. Look what have you turned Brandon, Tian Jie? The whole class knows Tian Jie's relationship when he doesn't want to tell anyone about it. Brandon, it's also a secret. A crush is a secret. Like yours, or whatever, you have your own crush, we never bother about it. Why even bother others okay? Tian Jie have his relationship, he's happy about it, just fucking leave him alone. You do feel angry when we all insult you black, nigger, don't you? Then please think what does others that you insult feel. Just because a SMS make you think I having a relationship. Why not you SMS me, I say you having a relationship with me la. Since you look like a gay also. Spam people SMS just because you have unlimited, fun to you, not to us okay. I insulted you even feeling that you will feel hurt, but all these came out BECAUSE OF YOU. I'm a loser, I blame people, I don't care, but I'm so angry that I'm blaming you PROPERLY AND RIGHTLY. Please do some fucking soul-searching. Xiaoqi and I are just good friends okay? Just like me and Sydney, me and Boon Kiat and other people. Can't we be fucking good friends with girls? You good friend with Yanfang, I say you having affair with her la, can or not? No right.

All my anger still not vented, still so fucking pissed off. Every vulgarities is coming out already.

This picture is a late one, it's when my 13th birthday last year. A birthday gift from Xiaoqi, she wanted me to post it, so anything. It's a chipmunk, very very very cute. My mother help me put it on my new study table, I was like lol. First laugh I did.


That's it. A very long post of me venting all my anger. Kind of feeling better. I'm going to rest now, the homeworks could kill me.

Goodbye.

Its a sin that I could not deny.
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